One of the most amazing experiences I've had since returning to work and New York City life after Omega is the resistance I've sensed in myself, the walls that start to go up unconsciously.
I've had a few moments where good things were happening, but because they were different, not the usual fare, I found myself resisting. And it took quite a bit of thinking to actually breathe and allow for the acknowledgement that this was in fact exactly whatI had been asking for. Both were work related situations that take me out of the reach and realms of an individual I have some difficulty working with. Both give me a greater degree of autonomy, ease of work and working relationships. Even more money. All things a blessing.
And once again I am reminded of the bounty of the universe and the amazing things that come when one has an open heart. The trick is to stay open. It is difficult and I feel myself hardening daily, vs. the softening I felt as each day melted into me at Omega.
It's been a busy two weeks, with not much downtime. Little time to create art, although thanks to my Omega getaway, I have a great new system set up for the installation piece I am working on. It's all in a box in the living room so when I get home for the weekend, it's within easy reach and I can meditate in the making without the production of getting ready to work. It's all ready to go, and I'm always ready. It's a great insight for future projects, that is, to create a mini work bin situation that allows me to work at a moment's notice. My studio at this point is so crammed and cramped, working there is impossible. It's more a storage space for all the materials. I can either spend time reorganizing or working, and I prefer to work!
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